Kim and I have known for some time that there would be a point on this journey when things would become very difficult for both of us. In some ways more difficult than the years she spent healing. More difficult than the exhumation of my own memories of abuse. Perhaps more difficult than some of the abuse itself. We’ve both known that as our story became more public, there would come a time when she would be called a liar and I would be called a lunatic.
Awakening to truth
Nearly six years ago I learned about a secret world that I never knew existed. Like many people I thought human trafficking was limited to impoverished young women from third world countries. I had no idea how prevalent it was and that children, even infants, were being sold and abused. I didn’t know about dark, satanic cults that were woven through our society and hidden in plain sight. I had no clue that human mind control and programming were even real things. And though I had no idea this stuff existed (at least at a conscious level), it never occurred to me to doubt what she was telling me. I never once wondered if she was lying.
For nearly two years I listened to countless stories so horrific most people couldn’t even imagine it. Stuff you couldn’t make up because your mind wasn’t even capable of going there. And not once did I doubt it was real. For one, her pain was real. I was watching someone experience memories that were very real and very painful.
But the bigger reason I had no reason to doubt it is that her truth didn’t threaten my own truth. I had nothing to lose by believing her.
On an unconscious level, I knew that there were people capable of abusing children. I had experienced it myself. While my abuse was not nearly as severe as hers had been, at some level, I knew it was possible. So, there was no reason for me to reject her stories or to question if they were true.
But there are people that will. Because her truth will threaten their truth.
When we are confronted with information that challenges our view of ourselves or of the world, we often react emotionally and defensively. Our minds are constantly protecting our world view and our sense of identity. When either of these is challenged, the same part of the brain that detects physical danger is activated. We drop into survival mode and we react defensively and sometimes aggressively.
I often use the following simple example when I am explaining this to students. If someone calls me a “selfish bitch,” it will trigger a reaction. It pushes a button, because at some level, I am afraid they might be right. I have behaved selfishly in the past. I have been a bitch. Their accusations threaten my current view of myself and the way I want others to see me. I drop into a fear response and I start defending. If that doesn’t work, I will start to get angry.
On the other hand, if someone calls me a fat, gay man, there is no reaction. It doesn’t trigger anything because I have never been any of those things and there is no part of me that fears they are right. I feel no need to defend myself and I just walk away.
The same will happen with our story. It will challenge most people’s worldview. And those that have something to lose will react defensively. Those with the most to lose will react aggressively.
Coming to terms with the fact that there are people in this world who are evil – people who abuse children, who sell them, torture them, kill them – will be difficult for those whose identity is dependent on a world where these things don’t happen. Learning that some of our leaders, the people we look up to, the pillars of our community are part of a secret, dark society will feel like a threat to their very existence. And their response will be to call it a lie. They will call her a liar and I will be considered to be crazy, naïve, or just plain stupid enough to have believed it.
And, of course, those that are a part of these societies, that have participated in abuse, that are hiding their true identity from the world, will be the ones that get the angriest and scream the loudest.
The world is waking up
I am encouraged by the number of people who are stepping forward and sharing their truth. Other survivors of human trafficking and satanic ritual abuse, but there are more. People who have been silenced for too long. Medical professionals, scientists, military, journalists – brave people who are sharing their stories.
And the reactions they receive are very telling.
Have you wondered why people react so defensively? So aggressively? With so much anger? When I see information that I don’t agree with or think is false, I typically just roll my eyes and move on. I have no need to get defensive or angry. I have no need to respond. But that is because I have nothing to fear. Their truth doesn’t affect my own.
Begin to question those that scream the loudest. What is it they are afraid of? What is it they are really afraid of? Begin to question your own responses. If you are being triggered by someone else’s truth, ask yourself why. Recognize that it is a fear response and begin to look for the root cause.
Even if someone is incorrect, even if they are delusional, they have a right to their truth. And unless you have something to be afraid of, their truth will not threaten your own.
The world is at a turning point right now. More and more people are coming forward. They are telling their stories. They are speaking their truth. They will face anger and aggression, but I no longer think it’s going to stop them.
Nothing to gain or lose
We know what we will face as this story becomes more public and we are prepared for it. That won’t make it less difficult. But we move forward nonetheless. Because we actually have nothing to gain or lose by sharing our story. The gains and losses for us have already occurred.
Lost innocence, lost childhoods, lost loves. The loss of the belief in our own divine perfection. But what we gained was tremendous. Healing, growth, and a friendship that will continue to support us both.
Sharing our story is now about what the world has to lose or to gain. Our hope is that the world loses its blindfold to what has been happening, what is still happening to children around the globe. And what we hope the world will gain is the courage to change, to heal, and to love.
We want people to know that healing is possible. We want to show people, through our story, how to move out of fear and into love.
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